A place for me to share my thoughts and reflections on my work. This is more like a public journal rather than "advice" entries. I admit that I don't have it all figured out. But maybe by writing things down, I can begin to work them out.
|Posted by tiffanychang on September 28, 2020 at 12:30 AM|
I've done a lot of recruiting in my career as a conductor. When I was a student, I recruited constantly for recitals and projects. I've recruited for the opera project I've been involved with for many years. Then I got jobs at universities and colleges, and guess what, I continued to recruit. I've always been annoyed at having to recruit. It would take so much time and effort away from what I wanted to do--studying and making music. Also, it was an act that kept playing with (or scratching at...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tiffanychang on August 21, 2020 at 9:50 AM|
I was never good at self-advocacy or self-promotion. I found even the thought of doing so very uncomfortable and completely against my nature. It would take so much effort to just say, "hey, here's something I did" and share it with the world. I felt like I had to put the absolute best work out there, and 99% of my work just doesn't cut it (in my opinion). If I didn't think it was worthwhile myself, why would anyone else think so and be interested?
Maybe because it was such...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tiffanychang on July 24, 2020 at 4:15 PM|
I've recently been thinking a lot about values. I went through a self-guided process of clarifying and giving meaning to my values (inspired by a class with Rich Diviney, former Navy SEAL Officer). I explored how these values inform my work and how to make them actionable. I reflected on how fulfilled I feel right now in my life and how these values play a part...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tiffanychang on June 25, 2020 at 2:20 PM|
Since I began studying conducting as an undergraduate, I’ve been obsessed with leadership. I feel like I am programmed as a human being to be a leader – I always felt like leadership tasks were easy. I didn’t need to think very much about how to design a journey that would get us from point A to B, while keeping in mind that there is C, D, etc, all the way to Z. It seemed natural for me to consider the holistic experience and to take care of the details that made the journey...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tiffanychang on May 11, 2020 at 10:20 AM|
It never seems like I am good enough. All artists hold that sentiment toward themselves, but I also battle the industry’s label of my being just a “school orchestra teacher” based on the profile of my work. When I was a student, one of my majors was music ed; and the vast majority of my conducting career has been associated with college programs. I do not regret any of those decisions, but when my career is put in that context, the work I do never seems to be worthy of a con...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tiffanychang on April 6, 2020 at 12:05 AM|
Every year, April fills me with dread because it’s my birthday month, an annual occasion when I get to remind myself how disappointed I am for not having achieved certain goals I’ve set out in my life. I never feel like I am where I want to be in my career, and I get further and further “behind” my personal goals as I get older. I know this is quite normal for artists but I think with COVID-19 this year and without the artistic activities that help me steer personal pr...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tiffanychang on January 31, 2020 at 9:30 PM|
This is the calm before the storm. In a few days, I resume my weekly commute between MA and OH. People always are surprised that I take a plane to get from one work to another. I have been doing so for almost three years, and actually, quite a lot of musicians (and non-musicians, like consultants) do this, and have been doing so a for much longer time.
We all agree it’s not as glamorous as it seems. It’s a lot of suitcases, having two sets of everything while maintainin...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tiffanychang on December 24, 2019 at 9:20 AM|
I recently had a concert experience that is staying on my mind for an unusually long time. While I confess that I ruminate and obsess more than I should (especially for the most miniscule imperfections), I typically get over a performance (miracles or disasters) within a week or so; and I move on to my next projects.
This one, however, has lingered and continues to occupy attention in my mind—along with all the feelings that came with it. I need it to go away so I can ...Read Full Post »